A Message For You

3 night ago, my Grandpa died. It's okay. He was 90(and a half) and so very very ready to be with my Grandma again. I posted this: RIP Grandma. 

This is not a post about my Grandpa. Not just yet. You see, I haven't really cried yet and so everytime I try to write an honorable post about him, I start to cry. Grandpa wanted no drama or fanfare or upsets over his death. He said 'Life is for the living. Do not waste precious moment grieving the dead' 

I'm trying to respect that. I know the sadness is for me. I will give in to the tears when they are tears of happy remembrances and not tears of guilt and sadness. (I'm one who remembers alllll the things I forgot to do/say after a loved one dies :/ ) 

So anyways. A post later about Grandpa, I promise. For now, this is a message. To someone I love very dearly, who is having a difficult time with the fact that her Dad is gone. 'I know this is hard. And I know you are hard on yourself for alot of things. Do not ever question the fact that you are an amazing Mom and raised some pretty damn good kids. But I don't need to tell you that.'

 I have proof: 

''My love

There's only you in my life

The only thing that's right

My first love

Your every breath that I take

Your every step I make

And I

I want to share

All my love with you

No one else will do

And your eyes

They tell me how much you care

Oh yes

You will always be

My endless love

Two hearts

Two hears that beat as one

Our lives have just begun

And forever........''

Who knew that almost 24 years ago this is where we would be today ♥ Our wedding song, a prophecy, of sorts. 

Without my Mom and my Grandparents, being the very best examples and teachers I could ask for, I wouldn't be this amazingly happy today. 

My wonderfully, amazingly, absolutely beautiful family ♥

So, Mom. See? Ya'll done this so right. 

I Love You. 

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*Smack*

As if I ran headfirst into a brick wall. 

Writers Block. 

I mean, I have tons going on, but I think I'm too overwhelmed by it all to write about it. 

Functioning, processing and trying to remain as consistent as possible. 

That has been my focus. 

Hopefully, soon I might have something to say. Honestly, this is a first for me. 

:/

Moving Backwards

I am just not getting this. It is 2012. North Carolina just approved a constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage. But they didn't stop there. They also went one step further by not allowing civil unions. 

What.The.F***. !?!?!?!

WHY is this even an issue? Who's business is it of ANYONES to tell someone who they can and cannot love. Let alone our government. 

Black.Gay.Girl.Old.Transgender.White.Boy.Bisexual.Straight.Young.Tall.Funny.Blonde.Lesbian.

All I see from all those words is a person. People. Human beings that love and needs love. The desire for touch and companionship. The need to share their love with another person, or even multiple people. 

I hear all this talk from people about how 'allowing gay marriage will ruin the sanctity of marriage'

Someone please tell me how that is? You know what? Never mind. I don't want to hear any closed minded opinions of how that could happen. It doesn't. No more so than a heterosexual couple could. Or ANY couple for that matter. 

This video is going around Facebook. I watched it. I cried. I watched it again and again and wished the whole time that Tom was my son. That I could take him in my arms, hold him and tell him I love him. His parents should be ashamed of themselves. 

I have so much more that I could say but I'm so angry right now. And sad. And disgusted with the fact that there is even a need for me to be angry, and sad and disgusted. 

Please watch the video. Its long. And its sad. But take a minute and really watch Tom and Shane. Watch the video clips. You can SEE how much love is shared there. LOVE. And really, when it comes down to it, thats really all that matters. 

When I See you Smile...

Usually a certain photograph can make me sing a little song in my head. This one though, makes me think that someone who witnesses me looking at this particular photograph, will be able to see what I am singing based purely on the look upon my face. 

'When I see you smile 

I can face the world, oh oh, 
you know I can do anything 
When I see you smile 
I see a ray of light, oh oh, 
I see it shining right through the rain 
When I see you smile 
Oh yeah, when I see you smile at me'