A Heavy Heart & Signs Of Hope

A few posts ago, I mentioned an unusual amount of teen suicides in our small town. 2 night ago, there was another. This is now 7 in 7 months. This time it was a 14 year old girl named Eden. She was bullied so badly that she took her own life. SHE WAS 14. Fourteen. Still just a baby with her whole life ahead of her. My heart is breaking. Being a teenager is HARD. Try to think back and remember.

Korie Nicole is an amazing photographer trying to make a change. She has started a campaign. Her and a few other local photographers. Amazing work!

YOU MATTER

If you are local to me, check it out. Go. Be there. SUPPORT OUR KIDS.

Remember this song?

(RIP Whitney, you will always be amazing to me)

Listen closely. It all starts at home. Teach your children empathy, compassion & RESPECT FOR OTHERS ALWAYS.

LOVE EACH OTHER. It's NOT that hard!!

So Much To Do

I thought it would be good to write while I was having a good day. I tend to write when I'm stressed, excited, overly exuberant or angry. I'm not sure what it is about those things that make me want to write. Writing is obviously an outlet for me. Which got me thinking. Maybe I should write. Really write. Like, a novel, or a book or an autobiography or something. Nobody has to read it, or like it but it might help some stress. One of my lovely blog readers, Hellena, has inspired me. She is a beautiful writer and such a beautiful person. I started reading her blog a few days ago and it's fantastic. I can lose myself in her thoughts and her words. So, I'm thinking I should start writing, or at least blogging more. I'm not sure I can blog as amazingly as she does, I'm not sure I'm ready to 'let loose' so to speak.

Hellena does and she is inspiring. That is on my list for sure. Oh yeah. My list. That is what I was intending to blog about today. I got distracted reading Hellenas' blog.

I have a list. I call it a 'Pre-Bucket List' because, even at 38, I just do not FEEL 38 (more like 25!) so I'm nowhere near ready for an official Bucket List. I'll wait until I am at least 40 for that. My list changes all.the.time too. I add to it, I take away, I put things on there that will more than likely never, ever happen. That should almost be a different list. My 'In Another Lifetime List'. I'll get to work on that. It will be fun to see how many of those I can move over to my 'Pre-Bucket List' and my 'Bucket List'

(another little secret about me, that you MAY have already figured out. I am a list maker. I make a list for EVERYTHING.)

My Pre-Bucket List (as of March 5th 2012 at 1pm, anyways)

Blog more

Write an autobiography

Write about my experiences with breastfeeding triplets

Write a novel

Get WAY better at photography

Play more

Try dog breeding

Backpack around another country

Buy an older VW Bug or Van and fix it up. By myself.

Relax often

Read more books

Become a gestational surrogate

Re-certify my CNA and work in a nursing home again

Bring the kids to a soup kitchen to help with meals

Bring the kids to a nursing home to visit with the elderly

Start one of the many photography projects that keep spinning around in my brain

Stencil my family room wall

Put hardwood floors in my home

Continue working on my patience

Finish my back tattoo

Get a few more tats (an owl and Jack & Sally)

Attend a rainbow gathering

Sew all my own clothing

*sigh*. That's all I can think of for now. I know I have more but the kiddos are starting to get crazy.