I am struggling with trying to find something to be Thankful for today. Really struggling. I won't ask you all to join my pity party, so I'll just say that 5 whining and crying tots aren't very much fun. Scratch that, it's a freaking nightmare. Add to that, 3 photo sessions to edit, a house to clean, a party to plan, and just life in general. Honestly, typing it makes me tired. And grumpy.
People say to me all the time, 'I don't know how you do it, how DO you do it?' And they look at me like I've got 3 heads, or triplets or nine kids or something crazy like that. My answer used to be, "I just DO'. What choice do I have?'
I just realized that is a crappy answer. It makes it seem like I'm stuck here. Like, if I had any other choice, I would choose that one. When, in actuality, when I really think about it, I wouldn't choose any other life for myself. Sure, I might wish to be a bit farther in my photography goals, or I might wish that the trio was 5 so they didn't cry so much. I might even wish for a housekeeper everytime I'm cleaning the bathrooms with 3 little helpers.
But all those things are attainable. All the things that I 'wish' for CAN happen, I just need to keep truckin' along. I do just DO things but I also have a choice. And I choose to be me. A mama to 9 beautiful children and a wife to my amazing husband. Everything that it says in my blog profile and more. I am:
Nicole: I am a Wife. Lover. Mama. Sister. Friend. Aunty. Breastfeeder. Photographer. Reader. Dreamer. Believer. Nature Lover. Seeker. Wanna-be Hippy. Writer.
So, I decided that today I am Thankful for the person that I've become.
I am Thankful for ME. ♥